April 2012
14 posts
Why are people still having babies
Don’t you realize that there are already not enough parking spaces for everyone as it is?
Don’t you people know there are thousands of children in the abused foster care system?
Don’t you know there are puppies being euthanized?
Is adoption like thrifting for lives?
High thoughts. But seriously. Being pregnant is kind of weird anyway. Why...
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Every single night
I endure the flight
Of little wings of white flamed
Butterflies in my head
These ideas of mine
Percolate the mind
Tickle down the spine
Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze
That’s when the pain comes in
Like a second skeleton
Trying to fit beneath the skin
I can’t fit the feelings in
Every single nights a fight with my brain
Why’d I say it to...
april 18
the junction
lights off in all the houses
no one there to watch us
april 16
Faint light of dawn I’m listening to you breathing in and breathing out Needing nothing You’re honey dipped You are beautiful, floating clouds, soft world I can’t feel my lips I’m going down, I don’t want to change I’m going down, going down the drain
-Sia
Occasionally I underestimate people.
Occasionally I underestimate myself.
The first time I text messaged I was like 13 years old. I got a new phone, the same kind as my best friend because I was so totally obsessed with her.
I was in the car on my way to Big Bear and I was texting my friends dealer trying to get some weed for the trip.
So if you were to ask me, the answer is yes. I’ve always been a g6.
I haven’t killed myself yet because when I look at pictures of myself as a baby it’s hard for me to imagine that little girl growing up to be as sad as me.
Emma got a trim...
I love presents.
Anonymous asked: Why do all girls like black guys
March 2012
8 posts
Sunday
You can close all the windows,
girl
But the birds will still sing
Saturday
Emma,
so many girls write so many words over you.
But only I
get to turn around in the earliest hours of the morning,
and lay my lips on your sweaty head.
I love you.
Anonymous asked: don't worry about making friends in Ia. you are funny, smart, and lovely. friends won't be a problem. come hang out with me! i live in coralville. so you will already have one friend! <3 abby
February 2012
2 posts
January 2012
25 posts
Sometimes you are the one losing
Sometimes you are the one lost
26 days
and i’m moving away. to iowa city. i am excited/terrified/anxious/and really nauseous. but we got a 3bdrm place for $850 in the “heart of downtown iowa city” so that’s exciting. google maps has shown me that we are within walking distance to pretty much everything. most importantly prairie lights and sanctuary. i’ve never been to either but apparently they are...
Anonymous asked: I'm well. I'm glad you are doing okay. Your posts have seemed so despondent lately. What happened with Emma?
“It’s a new year. You can be anything you want. You can do anything you want. You...”
– Twitter / @claytoncubitt (via claytoncubitt)
Write me a bridge away from the storm
I don’t know the words to the song you were born to sing
But I know your fingers will bleed when you play the chords
And maybe you’ll need me then like I need you now
When I say that I miss you I’ll mean something more
I mean I’ve been biding my time till you kiss me again
I keep poems like secrets then tell them when I’m tired
Of hiding who I am
I am...
I just want the woods so bad
Bark on trees and banana slugs
Emma in the tall grass
Great blue skies
Mountains standing firm behind us
I imagine a cool breeze, my hair is long
I’m trying to walk towards you but the grass is tall
So I lay down and it’s glorious
Because its you and me
And we made it
Roll the dice
If you’re going to try, go all the way.
Otherwise, don’t even start.
If you’re going to try, go all the way.
This could mean losing girlfriends,
Wives, relatives, jobs and
Maybe your mind.
Go all the way.
It could mean not eating for 3 or
4 days.
It could mean freezing
On a park bench.
It could mean jail,
It could mean derision,
Mockery,
Isolation,
Isolation is...
Anonymous asked: how are you?
flaked on my friend to be by myself
whatever that means
now i’m home listening to fiona apple and natalie merchant
drinking merlot
and vacuuming in my underwear
am i lame or completely sexy
This life takes your heart
And It shatters it
And puts all the pieces into a blender
And then flushes the rest down the toilet
And then makes the sun rise so beautifully
Every fucking morning
i’m heartbroken and it hurts
i haven’t been able to get you off my mind
not like i’ve been trying really hard to forget you
going to our favorite restaurants
eating your favorite ice cream
listening to our songs
i don’t even like flying lotus
i used to pretend i was asleep, and i’d watch you play your guitar
if only i could yell at you to stop losing your keys again
if only i could even just...
I think I’m forever emotionally stunted at 15 years old. There’s no moving forward from here. I am destined to always love Gilmore Girls and The Format. I think of Keaton so often. He was such a big part of my life, and I still haven’t met him. The Internet boyfriend who got away, I suppose. I still know his phone number by heart.
In 2012 I will probably do what I’ve been doing since 2008.
Get high, make up extravagant plans to escape, and then press the snooze on my alarm once more. Maybe this year I’ll take a night class.
One of these days I’ll just
finally
go
To thine own self be true.
Emma
December 2011
20 posts
Then I woke up and the hills were green again