January 2012
24 posts
Jan 22nd
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Anonymous asked: I'm well. I'm glad you are doing okay. Your posts have seemed so despondent lately. What happened with Emma?
Jan 21st
“It’s a new year. You can be anything you want. You can do anything you want. You...”
– Twitter / @claytoncubitt (via claytoncubitt)
Jan 20th
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Write me a bridge away from the storm I don’t know the words to the song you were born to sing But I know your fingers will bleed when you play the chords And maybe you’ll need me then like I need you now When I say that I miss you I’ll mean something more I mean I’ve been biding my time till you kiss me again I keep poems like secrets then tell them when I’m tired Of hiding who I am I am...
Jan 20th
I just want the woods so bad Bark on trees and banana slugs Emma in the tall grass Great blue skies Mountains standing firm behind us I imagine a cool breeze, my hair is long I’m trying to walk towards you but the grass is tall So I lay down and it’s glorious Because its you and me And we made it
Jan 20th
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Roll the dice
If you’re going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don’t even start. If you’re going to try, go all the way. This could mean losing girlfriends, Wives, relatives, jobs and Maybe your mind. Go all the way. It could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days. It could mean freezing On a park bench. It could mean jail, It could mean derision, Mockery, Isolation, Isolation is...
Jan 20th
Anonymous asked: how are you?
Jan 19th
this one time
standing in the corner of the room next to Devon and they are standing next to the door that opens to the backyard and all of a sudden he pulls out a knife and he says, woman don’t fuck with me. and my grandma stood really still and no one made eye contact
Jan 18th
flaked on my friend to be by myself whatever that means now i’m home listening to fiona apple and natalie merchant drinking merlot and vacuuming in my underwear am i lame or completely sexy
Jan 18th
This life takes your heart And It shatters it And puts all the pieces into a blender And then flushes the rest down the toilet And then makes the sun rise so beautifully Every fucking morning
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Jan 15th
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i’m heartbroken and it hurts
Jan 15th
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Jan 15th
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i haven’t been able to get you off my mind not like i’ve been trying really hard to forget you going to our favorite restaurants eating your favorite ice cream listening to our songs i don’t even like flying lotus i used to pretend i was asleep, and i’d watch you play your guitar if only i could yell at you to stop losing your keys again if only i could even just...
Jan 15th
Jan 15th
I think I’m forever emotionally stunted at 15 years old. There’s no moving forward from here. I am destined to always love Gilmore Girls and The Format. I think of Keaton so often. He was such a big part of my life, and I still haven’t met him. The Internet boyfriend who got away, I suppose. I still know his phone number by heart.
Jan 14th
Jan 14th
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In 2012 I will probably do what I’ve been doing since 2008. Get high, make up extravagant plans to escape, and then press the snooze on my alarm once more. Maybe this year I’ll take a night class. One of these days I’ll just finally go
Jan 14th
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To thine own self be true.
Jan 9th
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I miss you But I guess I don’t miss you that much…
Jan 7th
Emma
Jan 3rd
December 2011
21 posts
Then I woke up and the hills were green again
Dec 31st
How many steps to you That street in the country Your hammock in the yard, wooden swing, fire pit Remember the day the fireflies came to visit The old German graveyard we would make out in Max in the kitchen baking us cake Vedi vini vici You always did
Dec 28th
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Dec 27th
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Dec 27th
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Ladybug
Don’t let me go
Dec 24th
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Dec 23rd
I might never get over you, girl But I’m going to fucking die trying
Dec 22nd
Title
She leaves the faucet running for So Long You loved our Earth So much
Dec 22nd
Dec 20th
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There are bodies of memories I have swam in memories of her Body, seas of so many words… I wish there had been a lighthouse To lead us We were so blind to those things Playing house, and maybe it could have worked With some stickier glue I miss you Has our ship sailed “I never meant to fire lover I know you never meant to fire” Sometimes the weight of the ocean sits...
Dec 20th
Jolie
I love you so much it makes my soul tender.
Dec 18th
Adults are just children In their mothers lace night gown And their fathers dress shoes All of the time
Dec 17th
the proper care and feeding of introverts h lee calig
Dec 17th
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sometimes
i think i don’t hate you as much as i do, and then you say something on the internet that makes me want to slowly sand your skin off with sandpaper. but then lick your wounds clean. and then pull your eyelashes out with tweezers. weird
Dec 16th
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it makes me kind of sad when very attractive people have very unattractive siblings. like the attractive one must feel guilty and incredibly happy that they aren’t the unattractive one pretty much 99% of the time and that must suck because mixed feelings are very difficult to understand and deal with and the unattractive one must feel incredibly unhappy 100% of the time. especially when...
Dec 16th
new plan
Move to the East valley. Buy a bigger bookcase. Make an effort to be at home more. Read one book per week. Finally quit my job; probably work in some bar. Go back to school. Study poetry. Wake up by 7 am every day. Meditate at least 30 mins per day. Not talk so much.
Dec 10th
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Tuesday
So I was looking through my blog. It’s pretty much the most perfect representation of myself, and I don’t know how I feel about that. But I like seeing all my old memories. I like seeing all my old lovers. I loved them so much.
Dec 7th
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November 2011
5 posts
Thanksgiving
I am so Thankful that Emma and I broke up. Finally regaining a sense of self, and an expanded awareness. Body/soul/mind… where I am is exactly where I must be. And I’m thankful that I’m 21. Alone in my apt. It’s clean as hell in here, and I’ve been sleeping with Anna for almost 2 weeks. She’s really nice, appreciative, and picks up the tab. Each of my years...
Nov 24th
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I have a disease
the wanna fuck every girl I see disease jesus christ make it stop
Nov 15th
Although my boss did have a sit down with me to talk about the “direction” my life is going in and maybe I should “stick to the grass” for a while. And then we smoked a blunt and went to see Paranormal Activity.
Nov 8th
Tuesday
So two days ago I had probably way too much to drink and I stumbled into work and then got bit by my huge guard dog (straight for the juggler) and had to go to the emergency room and get a shot. Oh yeah and I puked all over the place. And then my bosses made me watch the whole thing caught on our security cameras while listening to The Godfather theme song. I wasn’t fired but I was pretty...
Nov 8th